[He stops, but he doesn't turn around. He just swipes at his face, furious with himself for being so weak, even after all this time. Shika would be rolling his eyes right now...and then getting him a tissue or something.]

It happens all the time. It happened with Oz, too. Gilbert lost his mind about it. You know why? Because he's not dumb enough to believe what it says in the newspaper.

[Now he is being cruel. Lashing out, because it's easy, and she's there. He swallows, choking on an apology that won't quite come up. He's not sorry because it's cruel, he's sorry because it's true. And how do you apologize for something like that?]