"Tisn't necessary. My lady has gone. Your services, therefore, are no longer required."

This had been his excuse for accepting the seal: so he could continue to serve Lady Sharon. As for his real reason - to avoid wasting away and dying pointlessly in Siren's Port...

Well. Reim had accused him of being a "dramatic" sort of person. Maybe it's true. It is true, who is he fooling? Everyone dies, most people pointlessly. Why should he be any different? He'd been a failure in his youth, he is going to fail now, he should simply accept that, without drama.