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but it was not your fault but mine
Who: Crowley [
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When: May 17th, 4:00 AM.
Where: Crowleyand friend's house.
Summary: Crowley is super feverish and sick from the guilt plague passing around. He feels this is a perfectly reasonable time to try and talk Castiel out of something. After he wanders around his house and bitches like an idiot for awhile.
Warnings: Crowley is feverish and probably half-drunk because that is clearly how to kill a plague caused by 42,000 years of accumulated guilt. Clearly.
The needing to breathe was bizarre.
He knew he didn't really have to breathe, but it helped soothe the rattling in his lungs and the ache in his chest. Lying down probably wasn't helping, either -- Crowley couldn't actually remember the last time he had to deal with something like this. The pains of mortality -- the virii and the bacteria battling away in his body like some kind of gruesome warzone.
He had been trying to figure out what had caused this illness. Why he was so harshly affected when some people weren't ill at all. He was a powerful demon -- the powerful demon -- surely he could fend off some silly illness? But perhaps that was the point, Crowley thought, as he stared at the ceiling, the sleeping form of his dog pressed against his side. Maybe it targeted the powerful instead of the weak.
But that, too, made little sense -- Anna wasn't nearly as ill as he was. And he hadn't bothered to speak to the other angels save for Castiel, who was sick, too. Almost as sick as Crowley was, though the demon had threatened to banish Castiel from the room if he didn't leave him alone about six hours ago. Something had probably changed. He was probably worse, knowing their combined horrific luck. They couldn't even live in the same area without almost dying from something stupid.
Maybe it was some kind of punishment for ruining the world.
The demon tilted his head slightly, at the stray thought, fever (and probably the six bottles of scotch he had ingested that day) causing his thoughts to become a little rattled, eyes narrowing at the ceiling. The ornate designs of carved wood support beams, the paint, the delicate brushstrokes of whoever had decorated, the --
No, go back to the original thought. Ruining the world. Maybe this was some kind of twisted karma. Some sort of ridiculous curse set upon us by the corporations. Bad people suffer bad things, news at eleven. Twelve. What time is it?
"Even my inner monologue is broken," Crowley muttered to no one in particular, one hand resting on the dog to shove himself up to sitting, a rattling cough escaping as he did so. "I can't even have a bloody conversation with myself without being distracted by a damn sneeze, I'm beginning to turn into Castiel."
And, suddenly, Crowley was in the kitchen, a hand slamming into place to catch himself on the counter as Growley stretched, bones creaking, before she settled back onto the floor. The hound always knew what her master wanted, after all, and what her master wanted was --
"We are out of the stupid Popsicles the idiot made me buy," Crowley said irately, closing the freezer with a slam that almost sent him to the ground. "I bought the stupid things because he whined and now they aren't even here. No one in this household needs to eat, where does all the food go?"
The effect of this rant was somewhat lost when Crowley's normally authoritative voice was marred by illness. It came out somewhat whispery.
Still loud enough to be an annoyance, though.
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When: May 17th, 4:00 AM.
Where: Crowley
Summary: Crowley is super feverish and sick from the guilt plague passing around. He feels this is a perfectly reasonable time to try and talk Castiel out of something. After he wanders around his house and bitches like an idiot for awhile.
Warnings: Crowley is feverish and probably half-drunk because that is clearly how to kill a plague caused by 42,000 years of accumulated guilt. Clearly.
The needing to breathe was bizarre.
He knew he didn't really have to breathe, but it helped soothe the rattling in his lungs and the ache in his chest. Lying down probably wasn't helping, either -- Crowley couldn't actually remember the last time he had to deal with something like this. The pains of mortality -- the virii and the bacteria battling away in his body like some kind of gruesome warzone.
He had been trying to figure out what had caused this illness. Why he was so harshly affected when some people weren't ill at all. He was a powerful demon -- the powerful demon -- surely he could fend off some silly illness? But perhaps that was the point, Crowley thought, as he stared at the ceiling, the sleeping form of his dog pressed against his side. Maybe it targeted the powerful instead of the weak.
But that, too, made little sense -- Anna wasn't nearly as ill as he was. And he hadn't bothered to speak to the other angels save for Castiel, who was sick, too. Almost as sick as Crowley was, though the demon had threatened to banish Castiel from the room if he didn't leave him alone about six hours ago. Something had probably changed. He was probably worse, knowing their combined horrific luck. They couldn't even live in the same area without almost dying from something stupid.
Maybe it was some kind of punishment for ruining the world.
The demon tilted his head slightly, at the stray thought, fever (and probably the six bottles of scotch he had ingested that day) causing his thoughts to become a little rattled, eyes narrowing at the ceiling. The ornate designs of carved wood support beams, the paint, the delicate brushstrokes of whoever had decorated, the --
No, go back to the original thought. Ruining the world. Maybe this was some kind of twisted karma. Some sort of ridiculous curse set upon us by the corporations. Bad people suffer bad things, news at eleven. Twelve. What time is it?
"Even my inner monologue is broken," Crowley muttered to no one in particular, one hand resting on the dog to shove himself up to sitting, a rattling cough escaping as he did so. "I can't even have a bloody conversation with myself without being distracted by a damn sneeze, I'm beginning to turn into Castiel."
And, suddenly, Crowley was in the kitchen, a hand slamming into place to catch himself on the counter as Growley stretched, bones creaking, before she settled back onto the floor. The hound always knew what her master wanted, after all, and what her master wanted was --
"We are out of the stupid Popsicles the idiot made me buy," Crowley said irately, closing the freezer with a slam that almost sent him to the ground. "I bought the stupid things because he whined and now they aren't even here. No one in this household needs to eat, where does all the food go?"
The effect of this rant was somewhat lost when Crowley's normally authoritative voice was marred by illness. It came out somewhat whispery.
Still loud enough to be an annoyance, though.
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He's also acquired a sore throat, hence the need for popsicles, and for comfort in general. He was curled up on the couch in the living room, wrapped in several blankets, remembering how often he'd spent incredibly weak and unwell on this couch a few months previously, and others before when he'd been regaining his powers. He'd been sick or injured more often than not at the Port for a long while, and he'd finally started getting past it.
But there he was, shivering under the blankets, pale and nauseous and feverish. His head hurt, his throat hurt, his whole body hurt, and he felt heavy and light all at once. He hated this, and he didn't understand; he shouldn't be able to be sick.
One of the rabbits was on the couch with him, laying on his chest as he breathed is quiet rasps, it's nose and ears twitching with Castiel's movements. Abaddon was snoring next to the couch as well, utterly unaware of his master's current state.
Castiel heard Crowley, though, arrive in the kitchen; he opened his eyes and lifted his head slightly from the arm of the couch, but didn't bother to speak. He was pretty sure he'd just end up in a coughing fit instead.
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Crowley appeared in an instant next to the couch and promptly caught himself on the back of his dog, to keep from falling over. Teleportation was a stupid thing to do, but Crowley was still having difficulty accepting the fact that he was ill in the first place.
"You ate them," Crowley accused quietly, though there was little bitterness in the tone as he looked over how ill Castiel was. There was a moment or two of pause before the demon sank slowly into a chair. "You're worse," he added, flicking his fingers at his dog, who promptly vanished and returned in order to fetch more blankets, for both Castiel and Crowley.
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He was startled, briefly, by Crowley's teleportation; normally he wouldn't be, but he was so haggard and fried that his senses weren't telling him what they should. At the comment about the popsicles he nodded and tried to respond, only to end up in a coughing fit that sent the bunny running and Abaddon waking up with a snort.
He gave up on talking about the desserts, then, instead focusing on the other thing Crowley had said. "Yes." His voice was surprisingly faint to his ears, and even raspier than normal. "Suddenly." He'd been doing alright until just a few hours ago, when his minor symptoms had turned serious in an incredibly short span of time.
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"Kitten," Crowley murmured, allowing his dog to rest her head in his lap. But the statement seemed to be lost to a vague string of thoughts and the demon sighed, letting the question he was going to ask slip away as he sunk into his chair. He couldn't work up the energy to care about theorizing possible causes for a virus that he shouldn't even have. Who cared.
Maybe it's punishment for ruining the world.
"Chuck told me why Magneto died," Crowley said suddenly, his voice quiet, fingers carefully tucking themselves into the hellhound's collar. "What he found in SERO's labs."
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"What did he find?" He managed to ask before falling into coughing again, a strange tickling and pressure in his chest whenever he breathed and worse when he spoke.
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Crowley's eyes were closed, his fingers idly scratching at his dog's neck as he spoke softly.
"You won't be visiting SERO in the near future, obviously."
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"Does Gabriel know?" He kind of... Should have been told. But who knows if someone had. How would SERO have Gabriel's DNA anyway? Castiel didn't have the whole story, but this definitely explained Michael's overreaction.
He frowned at Crowley's next comment, even though his eyes were barely open. "No, this is all the more reason to." And that was way too many words, and Castiel fell into another coughing fit that ended with a retching noise like he was considering throwing up on Crowley's expensive carpet. He might be.
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But Crowley, too, seemed to have wasted his energy on speaking, and he sunk lower into his chair, carefully focusing on his dog. It took a few long moments before he worked up the energy to speak again, but it was faint.
"It's not going to be you is -- "
There was a painful sensation in his chest as he inhaled deeply, to try to get out the next words -- and he looked irritated before he opened his mind to the angel, thinking -- he loathed the idea of praying -- instead.
It's not going to be you, is my point.
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"Who else?" He managed to ask, and even put some tone into it. Who else would be suited for it? As an angel, he might even have an advantage in this, considering the subject was angels. He'd have to be very careful, sure, but that didn't mean he couldn't do it. And he was suited to SERO far better than AGI, which is why they'd decided on this arrangement.
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Sending Castiel into a hotbed of scientific activity when they want angel DNA was a stupid idea. It annoyed him, slightly, that it was stupid, but it was. Sending Castiel into AGI was equally stupid, but at least Crowley had the savoir faire to navigate SERO without getting himself killed. Castiel, however intelligent he was, didn't know how to read people. And that was what was going to keep either of them alive and un-Voided in SERO's ranks.
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Stupidly right was still stupid, after all.
"What were you doing when you got worse?" Crowley asked, finally, tugging his dog a little closer by her collar.
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"It's blue." Castiel remarked, some combination of dazed and disgusted, though he felt a lot better all of a sudden.
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"I hate you."
And then --
"More details. Where were you walking. What were you doing before that. Why -- "
Obviously Crowley didn't give a shit that talking made Castiel worse, because he needed something to do in order to distract himself from the fact that his lungs felt like they wanted to collapse.
Unfortunately for Crowley, though, talking made him worse, too -- and he soon dissolved into a fit of coughing before he stubbornly kept talking, though his voice was almost comically quiet.
" -- why the sharp decline."
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"I don't know." His stomach heaved again at the words, but thankfully there was nothing left in it, so he recovered quickly. "I ate the popsicles and was going to go see what you were doing." And then his head had started to hurt incredibly, and he'd suddenly felt so weak it had been hard to get to the couch.
Whatever this illness was, it was hitting really hard and fast.
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Besides, he had work to do.
Crowley was, at heart, a scientist. A logical individual that could see through the bullshit and get straight at the heart of the problem. If he could figure out the keys to unlocking Purgatory, surely he could deduce the origin of a cold. Examining himself was out of the question, but here he had another specimen to pick apart.
Or, well. Prod. He figured Castiel would object to a dissection.
"If you throw up on me, I will kill you," Crowley warned, feeling dizzy and unbalanced, but determined as he carefully prodded at Castiel, to see what, exactly, was wrong with him. How high his fever was, whether or not his eyes were clouded, signs of dehydration in a being that shouldn't have to worry about it.
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Neither of them should be sick. This would be a curiosity to him too if Castiel didn't feel like he was going to pass out, and so he held still to allow Crowley to check out his symptoms. He was pale, cold except for a massive fever, eyes dark and hazy. His breathing was shallow and raspy, and every so often he shuddered with chills. This sucked, really bad.
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The fact that he hadn't vomited yet spoke greatly of his willpower.
The symptoms seemed similar, Crowley realized, as he forced himself to focus, as was the rate of contamination. They both got sick rapidly, with no warning whatsoever -- living in close quarters probably did it. As Crowley was ill first, it was probably Crowley that passed it onto Castiel -- and with that thought, Crowley coughed into his sleeve before looking cross.
And then he shoved a thermometer into Castiel's mouth.
"Don't talk," Crowley ordered weakly.
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The sudden weight didn't do much for Crowley's state of being, though -- and the demon immediately was held upward by his dog as he weakly tried to shove Castiel backwards.
"Kitten, wake up before I send you to the emergency room and you wake up in a bloody hospital again," Crowley growled underneath his breath as he shoved again at the angel, to get him off of him.
It was not working out very well.
"I understand I possess a certain amount of rougish charm, but get off," Crowley hissed, this time going for exasperation and frustration. Surely being somewhat inappropriate would cause the angel to snap back out of unconsciousness.
Nope.
"Get off of me or I am ripping out Dean Winchester's stomach and feeding it to my dog," Crowley wheezed, his free hand dropping to the side, exhausted.
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That memory caused enough of a spark of adrenaline for him to blink a few times and clear his vision a bit more, staring up at Crowley and coming a bit more back to coherency. "This isn't--" And then he cut off for another coughing fit.
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"Isn't what," Crowley muttered, casting a glance to his dog.
They needed water. Basic sustenance. Vitamins, minerals. Things their hosts obviously couldn't make on their own at the moment.
And the dog abruptly vanished to get them just that.
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It was a hoarse order as Crowley, once again, pushed the thermometer near Castiel, but he didn't shove it into his mouth again.
"Put this in your mouth. Spit it on me again and I will break this shoulder with the last ounce of -- "
And Crowley bit the inside of his cheek hard to keep the coughing at bay, chest heaving abruptly at the containment of the noise.
" -- strength I have," the demon finished.
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He laid there quietly if a bit uncomfortably until the thermometer beeped, reading out 103F. Castiel frowned at it. "Humans are supposed to be colder." He remarked, then rolled to the side to cough once again.
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Presumably. Crowley hadn't been monitoring either of their temperatures on an hour-by-hour basis, which was stupid, on his part. He hadn't thought of it until now. He was too busy trying to figure out why he was sick in the first place and feeling sorry for himself. Stupid. That was stupid.
He fell silent, then, quietly focusing on something other than the fact that he very much wanted to pass out. The disease was attacking a variety of people, humans, angels, demons -- no one was safe. Scientifically speaking, the fact that Crowley and Castiel were affected was impossible. Both of their host bodies were dead bags of flesh, as far as either of them were concerned, and they were powerful enough to fend off simple infection. And yet, here they were, just as sick as their mortal companions.
Something else must be at play. Something microscopes couldn't see.
" -- maybe this is a curse, a ritual of sorts," Crowley said absently to himself, voice faint, as he stared at his dog, which had reappeared with bottles of water carefully clenched in her teeth. "Targeting the people who deserve it."
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"That's why you believe we're both so unwell whereas others aren't?" Castiel's only voice is faint and he was determinedly holding down another coughing fit in order to speak. It made sense, in a way; he could follow Crowley's logic on the effects on them, and how they shouldn't be sick from a normal illness. If it was a curse... Well. They both deserved it, Castiel especially.
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Not that they could get into the house, but whatever. Crowley couldn't afford to be ill and sick, not when he needed to constantly think and plan and be eighteen steps ahead as everyone else. And he was -- that was why he was alive, wasn't it? And why Castiel was dead? Except he wasn't dead, not really -- Meg had told him the future. And while Crowley knew full well what a lying sack of shit Meg was, he also knew a liar. And Meg wasn't lying to him.
The ability to remove emotion from decision was something Crowley was notoriously good at. He held a lot of anger, passion, cunning at bay in order to constantly manipulate the strings around him, pulling and tugging in order to get the puppets to dance in his favor. Castiel, really, was no different -- except Crowley had made a crucial mistake. He had trusted the angel with something more than the basic facts. He had trusted Castiel with his entire goal, his plan -- he had included someone else in his master scheme.
Even now, with those wounds still open, but healing, Crowley couldn't trust him completely. Or anyone, really. Wasn't he now planning with Ruby in order to secure their position in the Port, to finally keep the Winchesters out of the way, to remove their weapons from them? Wasn't he, at home, planning by himself to rid the planet of the Leviathan, not really caring what was in his way, so long as he managed it? Didn't he, just like Lucifer, murder thousands of demons in order to prevent another revolution, to stay the peace with more bloodshed? It was a giant mess of hypocrisy and suddenly, Crowley's chest hurt with the effort of breathing.
Fitting, for the demon that pulled the world along on a string, to be suffocated underneath the weight of it.
And here, his former (current?) partner in crime, was no better. Equally guilty of ruining their world. Equally stained with red with the monsters they had tortured in order to pry open the doors of Purgatory.
Finally, Crowley said tiredly:
"I don't know, kitten. If I did, we wouldn't be ill."
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Until of course they hid things they shouldn't.
But Castiel was far too sick to even follow thoughts to completion, let alone try to guess what was bothering Crowley if it was even anything beyond the illness itself. But he did manage to gather enough willpower to sit up, head spinning, but though his vision fogged he didn't lose consciousness again this time.
"You should rest." He finally said, after a moment. He wasn't sure why Crowley hadn't just gone back into his room after realizing there were no popsicles.
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There was a sudden low whining, from Growley, and the demon leaned forward slightly, to pet his dog, subdued instantly by her show of concern. The stupid animal had never once turned her back on him, even in the midst of rebellion -- through thick and thin. Perhaps that was why Crowley liked dogs so much -- they were loyal, to the very end. They loved unconditionally, no matter what you had done or what scars you bore from the previous battle. Even the most whipped hellhounds were perfectly obedient to the demons that had trained them.
"I'm not going to die, calm down," Crowley murmured.
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"Perhaps rest will prevent death, not simply pass time." He suggested, voice faint, resting his head against the back of the couch but not laying back down.
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With exhaustion and pain came patience -- weirdly, for Crowley, as it was usually the opposite with a great majority of people. Still, Crowley could see little else he could do in this situation save for endure it. He had one theory -- and it was a terribly stupid theory -- and not much else. The only thing he could do was annoy Castiel, pet his dog, and suffer in relative silence.
Soon to be complete silence, given up horrifically his throat burned and clenched together whenever he spoke, but the demon wasn't about to let a few swollen lymph nodes get in the way of being heard, even if it did come out as a whispered hiss.
"Stop annoying me and pretend to sleep."
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For whatever reason.
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It was punctuated by a slight digging in of his elbow into Castiel's leg, irritated by the completely false allegations.
"Go to sleep before I knock you out."
Not that Castiel could sleep. Or that Crowley could sleep, either. But the threat made him feel oddly better as he tried to work up the will to teleport to his room. It would only take one tiny moment of concentration ... !
No. Nothing.
Damn it.
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"There was some movie you wanted me to see." He remarked quietly, after a moment, nodding his head just slightly at the television. Something about mermaids, and Castiel had protested that he had no desire or patience to watch a movie.
But neither of them were going anywhere, so why not?
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The demon flicked his fingers at the television, which turned on at the slight use of his power. A few more moments of concentration and the On Demand menu was shown.
"Pick one and we'll watch it."
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It made perfect sense to him, thinking about mermaid movies, to get onto this topic. But he didn't bother to explain how he'd gotten from point a to point b.
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"Are you cheating on me with a mermaid?" Crowley asked lazily.
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"I don't know."
Was he? In his current state, this was something to ponder, instead of to roll his eyes at and ignore.
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As Crowley tossed the remote lightly on the chair next to the couch, sighing tiredly to himself. Ordinarily, he would mercilessly torment Castiel for his lapse in judgment, but he didn't even have the energy to do that. He didn't even know if he could stay awake long enough to watch a stupid movie.
Somehow, missing out on the opportunity to torment Castiel was more worrying.