Canon Update Klaine

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Who: Blaine and Kurt
When: Tuesday
Where: Starts in the baseball field, probably will move to the apartment.
Summary: The boys return from a horrible canon update.
Warnings: Brief, fleeting mention of drug use. Vomiting. Angst.


Blaine wobbled a bit on his feet when he appeared back in the baseball field. He had been back in Ohio, getting home from Glee, heart heavy with the disappointment and shame of the day. Finn had been there too, sitting in the choir room, had asked a question Blaine still didn't know the answer to. Why? Before he could really talk to the other boy though, the room was crowded and the excitement of the others had taken over. They had chosen to put on Grease as their show and for the first time, Blaine didn't feel excited over the possibility of the musical. He just found himself wanting to go home. Go home so that he could be totally alone. No Skype dates to look forward too now, nothing except his quiet room.

When he blinked against the sunlight, he wasn't in his room, he was outside in a baseball field. The memories were just there for him, settling into his mind as if they had never, ever left. The same with the ring on his finger. It still gleamed and shined as brilliant as the promise that had prompted it to settle there in the first place.

Blaine stumbled forward as he remembered dying, coming back, losing Kurt, getting back with him, the drugs...

He bent over, retching, and vomited on the grass. The Pull had always been disorienting and nauseating, but these memories over powered him, made him feel sick, even more when they mixed and mingled with the ones he had just earned back home.

Why? Why? Why?

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Blaine wasn't sure what he was getting at either. It just seemed like it was important to apologize for something and this was a lot less painless. This made him feel hopeful for their situation.

He nodded a bit, but just looked a little confused over everything, and then settled back down into the bed. "We should both get some sleep..."

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Kurt nodded and snuggled up to Blaine, and was asleep in minutes. He woke up shortly after, though, moving into the bathroom to splash water on his face. In doing so, he caught sight of the ring on his finger; he'd forgotten it was there.

He lifted it up to the light, examining it. No matter how heartbroken and confused he'd felt back home, he didn't have something like this there.

There was no denying that something had to change for their relationship to move forward-- But what? A fresh wave of frustration moved over him; Kurt had done so much to change, hadn't he? He'd left their apartment. He'd quit his job. He'd done everything he could to accommodate Blaine, so why wasn't that enough?

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Blaine slept restlessly. When Kurt moved it woke him up. He listened to Kurt in the bathroom, wanting to make sure that his boyfriend wasn't going to change his mind and leave.

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Shower. Yes. Showering was necessary.

Kurt shed his clothes and stepped inside, running the water over his skin. He'd left the door open in case Blaine wanted to walk in--an invitation.

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After a while, Blaine got up and moved to the bathroom. "Kurt?" Blaine asked. "Can I..." he started, voice carrying over the sound of the water. He felt awkward asking Kurt for anything, but he wasn't going to just slip into the shower without permission.

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Kurt responded by parting the shower curtain so he could stick his head out a little.

"Quick."

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"Quick?" Blaine asked, not entirely sure what Kurt meant.

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"Get in before I get cold!"

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Blaine pulled off his clothes and then slid into the shower. "Sorry," he muttered, though he was smiling a bit. "I can help wash your back?"

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"In a minute," said Kurt, and moved to lean back against Blaine. He sighed. "Just hold me a bit."

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Blaine nodded and pressed closer to wrap his arms around Kurt's body.

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Kurt leaned back, closing his eyes. He was quiet for a while, just listening to Blaine's steady breath and the way the water thumped all around them. Distantly he remembered the last time they'd woken up together in the baseball field--somehow, this paled in comparison. Still...

"Something has to change," he murmured. "About us. I don't want to break up, but I don't want to pretend nothing happened, either."

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Blaine nodded a bit. "I know," he said. "What... what do you want to do?"

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"I don't know," Kurt whispered, leaning his head against his boyfriend's. "I think...I think this is on you, Blaine. I've changed so much already. I can't handle any more, not for a while."

He sighed. "I'm not mad at you anymore, and I don't want you to think you're being punished. But it still hurts, Blaine."

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"I'm worried about doing anything just yet," Blaine said. "I don't want to make big decisions right now, because I'm always going to wonder if I was doing it just to make up for what happened back home.... I just want you to know that I'm not that person either. We've both changed. You're just... better at it than I am."