[She doesn't understand why Lisbeth is saying this. People caring about her was the very last thing that Nill needed right now - especially Lisbeth, who Nill had just used to get information that she needed. Lisbeth, whose lover she was also using, in worse ways than she'd used Lisbeth until now.
Right now Nill needed apathy. People caring about her made it that much more difficult to do what she needed to do. She needed to do this... What else was left for her?]
...everyone I've ever loved is gone.
[And then, she starts listing off names. Some are just descriptions - people whose names and faces she can no longer remember, because this place has fucked with her head, but once upon a time they were still important, and they were still gone.]
The man who took me in, the scarred man, his friend, the little girl from school, the people from the network, Itachi, Kazama, Naruto, Senpai, Badou, Heine, Chane, Claire, Rin, Allen, Chouji, AR...
[And then with these, her 'voice' starts to sound just a little more desperate.]
Dave, Shika... Yosuke..
I've been losing people for years... and they never really come back, and it isn't ever okay.
I'm not the only one losing people, but I'm the only one left. I need to do this.
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Right now Nill needed apathy. People caring about her made it that much more difficult to do what she needed to do. She needed to do this... What else was left for her?]
...everyone I've ever loved is gone.
[And then, she starts listing off names. Some are just descriptions - people whose names and faces she can no longer remember, because this place has fucked with her head, but once upon a time they were still important, and they were still gone.]
The man who took me in, the scarred man, his friend, the little girl from school, the people from the network, Itachi, Kazama, Naruto, Senpai, Badou, Heine, Chane, Claire, Rin, Allen, Chouji, AR...
[And then with these, her 'voice' starts to sound just a little more desperate.]
Dave, Shika... Yosuke..
I've been losing people for years... and they never really come back, and it isn't ever okay.
I'm not the only one losing people, but I'm the only one left. I need to do this.