I'm a hazard to myself

[bondsoflove]

Who: Sasuke, Frau, Frau's roommates if they want to pop in.
When: February 6th/7th, midnight/early morning
Where: Frau's apartment in sector 5
Summary: After this debacle, Sasuke goes looking for help in low places.
Warnings: Painful awkwardness, foul language.

The last time he'd been in this position, standing outside a door with his fists clenched at his sides trying to force himself to knock, had ended up being the catalyst to the world as he knew it crashing down around him.

It was taking everything he had not to run in the opposite direction--slip inside the apartment in sector eight as though nothing had happened. Pretend he didn't know the significance of the date; forget he'd even considered asking for help, let alone chasing it to sector five well after dark. Warsman wouldn't mind--would probably be too busy making them dinner, or writing his own cards, or maybe falling for the soppiness in the air and bringing back flowers.

No. He wouldn't mind, but Sasuke would never stop mentally kicking himself for lying. Coming up short. Taking without giving anything back.

"Damn it," he hissed, and pounded three times at the door. "Frau. Open up."

(The thought passed through his head that if his twelve year old self came across him now, he'd be dead in less than a minute. A melodramatic but apt example of his self-hatred.)

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Had Frau's twelve year old self run into him he would be kicking Frau as hard as he could in the balls and going on a tirade about Frau becoming a bishop. He'd probably think Frau had completely lost his mind too.

Frau had been expecting the knock and was at the door only a moment or two after Sasuke had called out at him. The fact that the kid was obviously not pleased about being here only amused Frau. Teito had done the exact same thing. A lot. In fact, he still did sometimes. The whole "I hate you and don't want to be here but I am because I know I probably should be even though I don't want to be, only I kind of do, so I am" thing was how they worked.

He pulled the door open and smiled at Sasuke as he stepped aside to give him room to come in. Of course Frau wasn't going to be quite that gentle. There needed to be a tiny bit of teasing too.

"You know, I probably would have enjoyed just sitting inside and listen to you try to open the door by knocking it down for a bit."