We're just fumbling through the grey, trying to find a heart that's not walking away

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Who: KLAINE. They're Klaine again ohmygodyay
When: Sunday evening.
Where: SOME SHMANCY RESTAURANT and then we'll see.
Summary: Klaine's first date since their disastrous breakup and all the shenanigans that followed. Kurt is nervous. Blaine is...Blaine.
Warnings: Angst...fluff...maybe more...I'll add if necessary.



Kurt didn't have time to fret about the ring or about what his future would be with Blaine at all--the anxiety that had set in was enough to obliterate just about everything else in his head, honestly, swelling up like a lead balloon he was dragging everywhere. A first date. He thought he was done with firsts like that--done with a lot of things, actually, but life had different plans.

He'd been so happy to have Blaine in his life again that he'd put aside his own impatience, his own desire for something bigger, something permanent. Franz's warnings had been enough to stall those feelings for a while, but they came back almost instantly, pressing up under that lead balloon until he was weighted down by the girth of his own thoughts.

It all seemed to convert into some mad, nervous energy that Sunday evening when he got ready for what he'd dubbed their 'second first date', dressing and styling himself impeccably as if meeting Blaine for the first time. It was sort of exciting, to rewind like this, even if that insistence was still there in the back of Kurt's mind, ever-present.

He made it to the restaurant early and sat at their table with a Chardonnay, trying not to look as conflicted as he felt.

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"Okay," said Kurt, and hesitated for the briefest of moments before offering his hand again. "I waited months for you, at Dalton, remember? I can wait a few more."

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Blaine smiled a bit as he took Kurt's hand. "What if it turns out to be more than just a few months?" he asked. "I can't promise you that this will happen quickly."

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Kurt's heart hurt, but he nodded. What's a little more heartache? he thought bitterly. It's not like I'm not used to it by now. We're old friends.

"Yeah," he replied with a smile. "I'll wait as long as it takes."

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"Thank you," Blaine said. "For being so understanding. You've always been so patient with me. I really love that about you."

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"I've made up my mind," said Kurt simply. "You're my forever."

He kept their gaze locked for a second before pulling away to finally start on his food. "I hope it didn't go cold," he laughed as he selected another vegetable and began to nibble on it.

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Blaine smiled a bit. He felt relieved that Kurt had agreed. For a moment, he had thought that they would end up parting ways again.

"At least it won't burn you again?" he asked with a soft smile as he started to eat his own meal.

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Kurt laughed softly and focused on eating. He only managed about half; his stomach was still knotted up--but it was delicious. The waitress came back with a box and the check, and he handed over his credit card.

It used to be our credit card, he thought suddenly, and bit his lip as he waited for her to return.

"Was it good?" he asked. "Your dinner?"

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"It was," Blaine said with a smile. "Yours?"oo

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"The company is much better," he admitted, and took his card back from the waitress when she returned. He stood then, straightening out his clothes, and led the way outside.

He lingered by the door. "I'm...sorry I ruined our date," he said with a small laugh.

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"You haven't ruined anything," Blaine said as he waited with Kurt. "It was a conversation we had to have and I'd rather we have it now rather than waiting until it became a real issue."

He reached out and touched Kurt's arm. "Did you want to try to do something else, or should we call it a night?"

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"Um...maybe we should go," said Kurt with a small laugh. "I still have some chores I need to do, and I need to make sure Rachel is fed and everything."

And he needed to collapse on his bed and cry his eyes out.

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"Okay. It was wonderful to see you," Blaine said softly. He leaned up and kissed Kurt gently on the cheek.

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Kurt felt the tears gather in his eyes just as Blaine kissed him, and nodded, pulling away a bit too quickly.

"Yeah," he said softly. "See you soon." He turned immediately, not wanting Blaine to see him cry. Blaine had enough guilt, honestly, and a diva never held back her tears.

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Blaine let Kurt go, even if there was a part of him that wanted to chase Kurt down and beg him to let him go with him. Instead he focused on getting back to his own home.

His bed seemed depressingly empty.