Doctor, doctor, gimme the news

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Who: Sick people and their well-wishers
When: May 13th-June 4th
Where: Hospitals and clinics all over the Port
Summary: A catch-all log for hospitalized people and their visitors all over the Port during the sickness plot. Everyone feel free to centralize your hospital visit threads here for convenience!
Warning: Please mark your threads if you'll need any.

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[Roxas shrugs the hand off hard, but that only sends him into a fit of violent coughing that lasts for several seconds.

By the time it subsides, it's as if all strength has left him, and he sags into the pillows.]

Why? [His voice is small, pleading. Maybe not even directed at Sora.] Why her and not me? Why am I still here if she can't be?

[lockandkeyblade]

[He knows that Roxas is just reacting badly, that the gesture is just an emotional reflex, even if it kind of hurts. It isn't until Roxas says something that really gets Sora's hackles up that his demeanor changes.]

Hey-- Don't even talk like that!

[pullsheavendown]

Shut up.

[He doesn't mean it, doesn't want Sora to stay quiet or go away and leave him even more alone, but all he can think of is how much this hurts and how it's so hard even to breathe now. He flattens his palm against his eyes and curls away. He just wants it to not be true.]

It's not right. We were both sick. If I could make it so should she.

[lockandkeyblade]

No-- If you're gonna keep thinking like that, you need to hear this.

[Roxas may have changed he'd said before, wishing instead that Namine could have still been alive. But hearing Roxas wonder why he didn't follow Namine is something he can't stand, can't leave alone.

Everything he'd said to the other in his sleep comes flooding out now that he's awake. It hits far too close to home to be levelheaded about it.]

Don't ever say that again. Because even if it wasn't fair Namine didn't make it, wondering why you didn't go too isn't fair to everybody you'd leave behind. Not even close!

[pullsheavendown]

[He doesn't want to hear any of it, doesn't want to do anything but push away the horrifying truth. Namine, his friend, his sort-of sister, one of this first people to show him kindness when he arrived in this world, is gone. He won't see her anymore, maybe never again. And he doesn't want to face it.

But he can no more hide from the knowledge than he can get up and run from this hospital bed. And he can't run from Sora's words.[

None of this is fair. Not any of it.

Not to her.

[lockandkeyblade]

I'm sad too. Really sad.

I wished I could'a helped her, or found a way to make her better. Or even gotten to be there with her near the end. There's so many things I wanted to tell her and never did. Things I wanted to show her, and stuff I wanted to do.

[It gets harder and harder the more he thinks about it.]

That's why you've gotta get better. I got meet you like I always wanted, right here in the Port. I learned about you, and who you were. I got to read your diary and go skateboarding and have coffee with you.

Even if it's really tough to get back here once we leave the port, I know I can find a way to see you guys again.

If something happened to you, if you got too sick... [Then Sora'd never see him again.] Well you just can't.

[pullsheavendown]

[He can't look at Sora at first, and is only willing to let him go on because he can't choke out any more words on his own.

But there's so much emotion in his voice, so much feeling, that Roxas stops hearing and starts listening.]

Sora...

[He knows Sora cares. He's done nothing but try to be closer ever since he arrived more than a year ago. Roxas has been the one who's held back, for the most part.

Silly then, that he can forget what it must be like for him, watching people get sick and slip away. Getting closer to losing the chance he's fought for all this time.]

I'm not going anywhere. [He swallows hard.] Okay? I won't die. I promise.

[lockandkeyblade]

You can feel sad she's gone. You can get angry, and miss her. You can sneeze on me and kick me out of the room, and even sleep as long as you want.

[And as if to solidify his Other's resolve, Sora holds up a pinky. This is a pretty serious thing, okay? So Roxas has to take seriously too.]

But you can't disappear.

[pullsheavendown]

[Roxas looks at the offered pinky for a long moment, as if hypnotized, before lifting a hand and hooking his own pinky through it.]

I won't.

[lockandkeyblade]

[Sora seems at least a little mollified at the gesture. His whole body seems to visibly give off relief, like one big inward sigh. And with one dip of their linked hands, they finish the pact, the promise. One that Sora hopes extends past just this sickness. He wants Roxas to be around for a long time. So they can fight and hang out and break down that wall for just as long.]

[pullsheavendown]

[Roxas feels so full of so many things now—grief, anger, and now something he can't put a name to. Never mind the fact that he shouldn't be feeling any of this at all.

Slowly, he draws his hand back.

And sneezes in Sora's face.]

[lockandkeyblade]

[Sora groans, bringing the back of his hand across his face.]

When I said you could sneeze on me, I didn't actually mean I wanted you to do it. Bleugh...

[pullsheavendown]

Sorry.

[He rubs his nose with the back of his hand, not that it helps now.]

It wasn't on purpose. I don't get a lot of warning for those.

[lockandkeyblade]

Yeah I bet... I don't get much warning for those either.

[pullsheavendown]

At least you're not sick. You don't have to worry about them as much.

[He sounds calmer, quieter, if not exactly happy. Namine's still gone. But he isn't. And won't be.]

[lockandkeyblade]

Just focus about getting better. That way, the both of us won't have to worry about it.

[pullsheavendown]

Yeah. I will.

[He hesitates.]

Do you think...the Core will pull her back again?

[lockandkeyblade]

I don't know. I mean... if it brought her here once, right?

[Though Sora has a lingering fear that it's different for nobodies. He doesn't want to imagine that this is it. Just one chance.]

[pullsheavendown]

Yeah. I don't know either. But other people came back.

I guess we just wait.

[He doesn't want to put it into words, but he's sure they have the same fear.]

[lockandkeyblade]

[For Roxas' sake, he nods. And it's a little scary to be admitting it out loud, even if technically he already did. He made Roxas promise over it too.]

Right. We'll both be waiting for her.

And I can keep an eye out for her and call you if she shows up. [He is a greeter after all.]

[pullsheavendown]

[He closes his eyes for a moment, hoping as hard as he can but afraid to hope.

Come back, Namine. We're waiting for you.]

Thanks. Really.